(wish I could have fun on pico day, but I can't).

Well. In August 2023 I released a track that I'm coming back to create more tracks, but somehow after Dreamy Aesthetic and Timeless Bizarre nothing followed.

Seriously, those two are the only two tracks I actually published in unfinished state. They've been like that since November-December 2022.

I didn't want to just abandon my music, my account and show that I'm alive at all, but with my current state, when I want to do something, I go and create something, and then I don't want to do it, it doesn't go, but I want to do it. Like laziness mixed with the desire to do something. And it's been like that for almost two years now. 

I don't know how to describe it, it's more than a creative crisis and burnout, it's a very big burnout that is clearly not reversible. 

With my unfinished tracks I show my state. Every time to create music and to do something not to die in the inability to do what I've been doing for 5 years....

I have no words to describe it. 

I think I've been influenced in my life by the society I live in. 

I got into college and I thought I'd find people better than I did in high school. 

But no, I fell into a group of very trendy people, very smokers, drinkers, etc. young people of today, real zoomers, tiktokers. They're just not interested in me in general, at all. I still haven't found any of them, who could talk to me, listen to me and generally share common thoughts. I feel like an outcast after that. College is also wearing me down, because I'm not even in the same major, so it's also very uncomfortable. I sit there from 8 am to 6 pm and the only thing I can do is to prepare for my study and have no time to create something and generally have a rest.

If I shorten it all, my inactivity in music has to do with the life I got. 

Let me leave a very appropriate track here: