Хоть пост и на английском, но я выражусь по-русски, что б не позориться.
Приятель, сколько уже знаю тебя и вижу твои сообщения, которые ты оставляешь в Discord и здесь, хочу вот просто пожелать, чтобы дальше у тебя всё сложилось удачно. Не повезло с коллективом, понимаю. Постарайся найти нужных тебе друзей и общий язык с ними. Может у тебя и найдутся силы и время на достаточную самореализацию, и тогда жизнь забьëт иным ключом 8)
My apologies. I'm already running out of energy for the time being, and those are not easy problems for me to even attempt to tackle genuinely at the best of times.
While it can be freeing to put your concerns into words, I often describe making news/blog posts on NG as 'talking to the void'.
Your peers in the various forums here might be able to to give good advice for your situation(s) if you make open a thread in 'whatever you feel is the appropriate forum'. (Just don't flood the place with lots of different threads all talking about the same things.)
life is fuckery nowadays, yep. i wish you all the best.
i also feel like an outcast often (in fact i feel like an outcast since about 5-6th grade? i guess...), because there are almost no people around that have the same interests as me + i am garbage at communicating with people in real life, unless they're close friends, relatives or i'm hammered-drunk LOL. this and a couple other reasons is why i'm like this nowadays - single, not talkative, predominantly introverted... queer a little bit...
i hate trends (at least majority of trends), vertical short video plague, social media (most of it). i also don't like most of the modern pop music, rap music and similar stuff. all of this is what 90% of people around me go crazy about, and since all this stuff is not up my alley - i can't get along with such folks. or it's just really difficult for me.
again, i hope things in your life get better after time.
Remi-le-Oduen
I hope you will find a way to a brighter state soon. Take care, try to stay away from toxic people